The house is buzzing with bedtime snacks and stories. I close the back door behind me, I’m off to a haircut, by myself! This alone is a miracle from heaven; between the cocooning of adoption and the farmer spraying the fields I don’t find myself kid-less well, ever! As I slip out the driveway the pavement black with heaven’s shower, my mind is filled with all of the to do’s, didn’t do’s, what’s coming, what’s already happened.
The quiet of the car isn’t enough to bring me fully into the moment. It’s not until I am barreling down the road that I glance to the side and the surprise of the visible, tangible promise awakens me and I actually gasp out loud. I wasn’t expecting it, the rainbow in all of its glory making me fully aware in that moment, slowing my cluttered mind right down to a stand still.
Is this what God needed to use to get my attention? To fully experience all that He had for me in these brief moments of quiet?
It worked and I slowed and He said promise.
The beautiful sign of his promise to me— to love me— to awaken me to Him— to never leave me.
I think about the promises I’ve made to Him, to the farmer, to the kids, to myself.
Have I followed through?
Have I been good for them?
How many times have I not taken them seriously, not followed through in the moment of a child waiting for the promise of my time, my “eyes” or my help?
How easy it is for me to become so focused on the “pavement” ahead that the reminder of the promises are sometimes so startling they make me gasp out loud.
The ticking clock makes me put the car into gear. I’ve turned onto gravel now with the visible promise in the rear view mirror as I lay down the broken promises, seeking to see what promises need to be lived into. Grateful for the grace and that God never breaks His promise.
Then God said, ” I am giving you a sign of my covenant with you and all living creatures, for all generations to come.
I have placed my rainbow in the clouds.
It is the sign of my covenant (promise) with you and all the earth.” Genesis 9: 12,13
So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. Hebrews 4:16